I've been a bit in the depths the past couple days, trying to deal with awkward and frustrating situations, feeling like I'm somehow failing even though I know that I'm not.
Last night's tutoring was a mess and it's just been one of those weeks where I just want to take a vacation from life in general, and I was late for music practice by an hour, but everyone was understanding and I was so relieved. It finally felt safe.
I got a tangible gift of grace that I needed desperately, and as we're clapping and singing songs written by those who came before us who had far harder lives and greater struggles than ours, it put things in perspective. "Some glad morning when this life is over... no more darkness, no more night... since I laid my burdens down..."
I know that I'll look back at certain things in my life and realize they weren't the end of the world, but sometimes it feels like it right now. It's stupid because the rest of the world has much bigger problems to deal with, like, you know, trying to find food for your family or just existing another day.
I just realized that I have Monday off and I'm so relieved. I need an extra chill day desperately.